And just when you think things cannot get worse, they do.  
Awful things come at you, and try to destroy you and won’t give up.
You think you will die, you are sure of it. The only thing keeping me from giving up  right now are the words of my God, who loves me more then I could ever know, and desires the things that are best for me.  His plans for me are great.
Even when I feel so alone I can hardly bear it, I look to the words of my Savior,

For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:

a time to break down, and a time to build up;

a time to weep, and a time to laugh;                                                                                a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

and, the perfect promise,

  He has made everything beautiful in its time.

That promise is all I ever need to know.

Someday, it will all be beautiful.